Public Service Announcement
I have to start by saying how sorry I am that I have been away for so long. I had left this blog in the lurch and people were still submitting these wonderful letters. I am so very sorry for that.
I have gone through and posted some of what I have received, and will post the rest. Then I will close the Ask Box for a little while until I decide what to do further. Despite the fact that some of the letters talk about events from before, I still wanted to post them. Because they are a record of someone’s feelings at a particular point in time, and that’s important.
Part of this whole exercise was a chance to show Misha Collins how people feel about Castiel, but I think from the very beginning it was more for people who love Cas.
Of course everyone who submits a letter knows he is a fictional character. As do people who draw fan art or write fan fiction. The character isn’t real, but the emotions invoked a very real. This outpouring of emotion is a way to channel our feelings. Castiel is a being born out of someone’s wonderful imagination and brought to life by a talented actor. The letters here are a testament to the success of that endeavor.
It used to get me down that people would scoff at the idea, and think it was trite. But now I just really don’t care. I have seen raw honesty flowing from these letters that is bigger than a television show, or bigger than any controversy or tension within a fandom. If I were Misha, or the writers, I would hold this in the highest regard, as the highest form of flattery. That my work could incite such passion? How incredible is that?
I have to thank everyone who participated in this. I did have an opportunity to speak to Misha Collins twice (at ChiCon last year, and JIBCon this year) about what he thought of the book and he said he “loved it”, and that it was “really sweet”.
But more importantly, I wonder how it made YOU feel? I hope it made you feel comforted.
[I’m not sure who made this gif, but it’s beautiful and I had to use it]
My Dearest Castiel,
You make me smile. And this is why;
C ellphones. Confusion and frustration is what they cause.
A ssbutt. A term not used loosely.
S pace issues. Personal ones.
T ortillas. A flat bread. God is not on one.
I niquity. The den of. You should not be there.
E nochian. Jokes are much funnier said this way.
L iquorstore. When one finds one. One drinks one.
I love you Castiel. You are my light in the darkness.
A Word From A Previous Letter Writer
I am Franziska, the English teacher from Germany who posted letter(s) written by her students only 24 hours ago (http://letterstocas.tumblr.com/post/5964509833). My students and I are overwhelmed by the about faves, reblogs and comments on our letter(s) to Cas.
On behalf of my students I want to say thank you all very much for the appreciation. They felt a bit uneasy because of course they knew that their English is far from perfect and that the thoughts of German teenagers are certainly not world-shattering. But now they are so moved and reassured, concerning both their mastery of the English language and the importance of their thoughts.
Again, thank you all very, very much!
Just wanted to say that I love you. I know what it’s like to have friends take from you, use you, make fun of things you can’t help, and I know what it’s like to make huge mistakes because you were too afraid to ask too much from people, to ask for help. I think even though you made a really big mistake and made the wrong choices, you made them yourself and that’s really something.
I know having all these souls inside of you is numbing the pain of loneliness and feelings of abandonment, but it’s not a solution. So put them back in purgatory for yourself, and take Dean’s advice; you can fix this a different way. There’s always another option.
I know you don’t think you have family, but we’re you’re family. Be safe, make good choices.
I remember watching the show one day and it happened to be the episode you raised Dean from perdition. My nine year old brother was here and he took to you immediately. He has asked about you every now and then, tells me to give him updates. So I do, and he was very worried about you now that this season has come and past. I told him not to worry, because like Sam and Dean - family is everything to me and even if we are mad for a while and may even deny the people we love our blessings that doesn’t mean we will ever stop fighting for them. I believe Sam and Dean know that and will honor that how they always have. Family, that is the whole point after all.
You don’t need to be God to be loved, silly. We’ve loved you from the get-go. We don’t need a God, we need *you*.
So come back to us, won’t you?
I have always been a fan of Supernatural, ever since the show started, but never truly became invested in the storylines until you showed up, sending sparks down from a barn ceiling.
You are my favourite character on Supernatural and I have loved watching your progression from Angel of the Lord to awkward angel learning about humanity to being like a God. I have loved every moment of your story and always look forward to seeing you onscreen.
I understand why you did what you did through swallowing the souls to defeat Raphael. I hope you succeed with your continued journey, whichever way you choose to do it. I will never stop believing in you nor will I ever stop loving you. I will always support you, no matter what. I look up to you because you have proved to me that even an awkward person like me can win through.
Te amo, Castiel, ♥
You give me hope that it’s ok to be incredibly socially awkward. I can relate to you, and you’re my favourite. :)
What can I say about you that haven’t already been said so many times? When you first appeared on my television screen, I was intrigued to say the least. I started watching the show because of you. To watch your character grow from faithful soldier to loyal friend to a rightful family member has been one of the highlights of the show for me. You are a true friend, and you love unconditionally. I believe that’s what drew me to your character. Castiel, you gave all of yourself to help the people you cared about without a second thought. You never stop believing in people, and you loved with your entire being, even when at times, they really didn’t deserve it.
This season has been painful for me to watch to say the least. You never deserved the treatment you received. You needed friends who would stand by you, listen to your fears, and be there to help. I just want you to know that you deserved that Cas and so much more.
The development of your character thus far is a far cry from the trench-coat wearing, awkward angel I fell in love with, and it saddens me greatly. I had almost preferred you to die a heroic death in the end, instead of the route they have recently taken you. You also deserve this and so much more.
Above all, Castiel, you deserved to be loved, even though those around you don’t say it. Let it be known that I love you Castiel and always will. No matter what happens.
I have to admit, when you first appeared in the world of Supernatural, you scared the bejeezus out of me. Anyone that threatens to throw Dean Winchester back into Hell gets my attention pretty quickly. Somewhere along the way, however, I turned around to find you were my favorite character and episodes without you felt like they were missing something.
You’re naive yet very wise, innocent yet very much a soldier, and I’ve grown attached to you in a way I never have another T.V. character. To see you become what you have fought so hard against has broken my heart.
Throughout the years that you’ve been on Supernatural, you have epitomized what everyone dreams of in a friend: someone who will stand by them through thick and thin, and who loves them unconditionally despite knowing all of their sins. Sadly, you have proven yourself time and time again and received nothing in return.
Please become our good Cas again. Even if you don’t, I’m still on your side, but I miss good Cas and I don’t want to lose him. I love you Cas and I don’t want anything bad to happen to you.
I have so many hopes for you. I hope for your redemption, I hope for your reward, I hope for your acceptance back to Heaven when you decide you don’t want to spend time on Earth anymore. Above all, I hope for you to know that you are loved. After everything you have sacrificed and lost, if anyone deserves love and acceptance, it’s you.